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i wanted to say that i want you, when you need me, and especially when you don’t want me. so it hurts a little bit more each time i look at you and don’t feel like you can or want to do the same for me. it hurts a little bit more and i cry, but now when it hurts i can’t find those tears. i feel like i’m letting go of us, and part of me is not sure if there is an us to let go off. i want you, i don’t want to add any more words to these feelings because that gives me hope. i want to feel hope but then my heart gets shattered when i see you as my whole world, but i can’t fit in yours. when i want to take care of you and see you happy, but you only “do it for me” and not because you find happiness in it for you too